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I’m so sick of suicide
It’s everywhere I look
Pictures, and in movies
In poetry and books

I’m so sick of suicide
It’s pathetic and it’s weak
Blah blah blah so awful
Outlook always bleak

This life’s just not worth living
Could they be any more cliché’?
I know that I just can’t go on
Isn’t that what they say?

Do you live in China
Without freedom’s basic choice?
Are you a woman in Afghanistan?
Forbidden to have a voice.

Are you starving now in Africa?
Surrounded by disease
Or under corrupt dictatorship
Forced upon your knees

These people rise to challenges
We cannot comprehend
They live their lives from day to day
And triumph in the end

But daddy won’t buy me the car
He promised me last fall
Oh what now am I to do?
I’ll have to end it all.

My girlfriend found another
She loves him more than me
I’ll bleed until I’m empty
Then she’ll finally see.

I’m so sick of suicide.
I have extensive personal contact with suicide, and dealing with suicidal individuals. I'm not generally this cold on the subject, but I needed the cathartic release this piece provided me.
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thats-me-art Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2017  New Deviant Professional Traditional Artist
It's not because of simple things that make people sad that drive people to suicide. It's years of problems that can't be solved. If something drives you to suicide it will not be simple things. It is part of the pain of trying and failing so much that things get worse than they already were. It feels as if you have a weight that keeps getting heavier and heavier and the only way to remove that weight is by killing yourself. When suicidal your blood becomes that weight and the only way to get the weight off of you is by bleeding and death. Depression blocks out the fun in life and makes people think about the shit that is bad. Depression makes it harder to try for a better life and makes people give up. Depression however doesn't actually make people act this way. Depression is just what we call those feelings. Many people with depression would rather go through being deleted from the world like a file on a computer with only the memory of them being left than continue living. Depression is a very serious subject and instead of posting something on deviant art that says you are tired of suicide you should actually start trying to help people out with this shit. It is horrible to even think that someone would kill them self because of a little simple reason.  
ItalianNoodle Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2017
Just think how bad you just made someone feel. Agreed, there are selfish people who over react for stupid reasons. "He left me I want to die" "The dress was just horrible I want to kill myself." Yes, those things make us upset and depressed for a while. But think about all the people who are suffering from actual depression.. The ones who try their hardest to be f*cking happy. Don't you think we know there's people in worst conditions?? How do you think it makes us feel. I feel guilty those nights I toss and turn in my bed unable to sleep, while I think of all those poor children who didn't eat. You're tired of suicide? If you're not willing to help and understand then don't freaking complain.
Marquesinif Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2017  New Deviant Hobbyist General Artist
suicide is less linked to sadness in my opinion, but more to do with feeling numb and a burden. I have my ow personal experiences with suicide (grandfather) and even though i tell myself my mom didnt deserve to feel what she did. I still feel like ending it would be whats best for her. i dont know. wont pretend like i do.
himynameisdead Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2017
the funny thing is, people who live in those situations are less likely to be suicidal... but it makes sense because they have more of a reason to be driven. and purposelessness is a huge problem, along with a lack of connection to society. we see this disconnect quite often in society these days and growing among youth as time passes
ShrioKaneki Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2017
i know suicidal people and i hope they never read what i just read this is really fucked up and i get that you need to speak your mind but at least give people a warning i personally think you owe an apology to the people you offend because it isn't always about what you said i had a bad experience when i was around 5 i didnt realize what he was doing to me until a year ago and it has kinda fucked with me and tbh i have had sucidal thoughts before not because of that exact reason but multiple 
RaInBowSlIcEr314 Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2016  Student General Artist
i have tried to commit suicide b4 and just saying that that isnt why i tried to.....
DragonFireBri Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This hurts me.

This isn't why people commit suicide

Getting called "fat" and being abused by your brother is why people commit suicide

Being bullied by your teachers, and having a target pinned onto your back for bullies to take aim at is why people commit suicide

Being taunted and treated less than human, all because of who you love, is why people commit suicide

You don't understand what we're going through

And it's people like you who push us over the edge, leaving us to scramble for our blades, nooses, and pills
EmaPrebanic Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2016
Preach it
ThatSourUsagi Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2016
These idiots......they make me laugh. The ones that are calling you a loser for speaking up...
eyeigneous Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
Thepsycho2112 Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2015
This is an incredibly hurtful poem to suicidal people, and this does not help at all. On top of everything we're dealing with, you're basically calling us weak and cowardly people. How in the world is that supposed to help? Also, I'm not suicidal because mom and dad don't buy me a car, I'm suicidal for many reasons. I believe myself to be a failure as a student and son, I believe that the world as we know it is screwed, I think that despite my efforts to improve my mental well-being that I have not made any progress, and the feeling of mental pain I get every day is enough to make me cut myself every night. I do think about the less fortunates of the world, I think of them all the time. There's ethnic groups in Burma fighting for survival, a Civil War in South Sudan ripping the country apart, there's ISIS in Syria and Iraq, Uighurs fighting the Chinese, cartel violence in South America, and I feel all of this. And it does not make me feel any better. This poem had made my night a lot worse, and I'm going to try and get over that. I hope you know how much you've hurt so many people that have read this.
CounterN00b Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2016
I agree with the previous person... sort of. But what you said is also the same way I feel.. I wish I could do more for those less fortunates... but I am way past believing I could be any great hero. However, like the previous person said, he may have been sarcastic about the whole thing and may have even been frustrated because he lost so many people to suicide to various reasons, including those he described. Thus he may have had to vent like he said in the description. People deal with all this grief in various ways.

However, at face value, this does not mean I agree with any of the statements that this guy wrote at the end about why we are suicidal. I am just trying to look at it all from various angles. and I have great sympathy towards you and others that experience the same feelings as you do.
LuvLuvHurts Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2015
I'm not trying to insult you in any way but...have you ever heard of 'sarcasm'? That's what he/she does. A unique story sometimes is just simple sarcasm written on it.
Yeah, it might hurt suicidal victims. But, it's just mere sarcasm. He/She is not trying to hurt them. It's just sarcasm. A unique story.
CyrnaMoustier Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2015  Student Digital Artist
You know nothing of the reasons that make people want to die!
Werwer101 Featured By Owner Edited Jun 19, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
This is just.. Ugh..
but since this is just for release, I'm letting it slide. I would usually curse you out and call you all the names in the book, however I don't want to get all "bitchy" But.. It's still wrong. Those two examples are NOT reasons people commit suicide.
DigitaI-Renegade Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2015
This is fucking sick.
yoyomrpurrz Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2015
Just because there are issues in the world, does not make yours less important or meaningless. I hate this piece, because you are telling people to get over themselves. Suicide is serious. Please read up on it and study the psychological meaning behind suicide- because this piece is extremely ridiculous and hurtful.
DaBusDriver09 Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
Well this certainly was different.
In a Neo-Nazi kinda way.
They have a right to express they're opinions and so do you. 
If you were to look up a poem about a pedophile expressing how much he loves to molest children: That is the equivalent of the feeling I got from your poem.
You might be intelligent or a really nice guy, but what you have written here is a disgusting caricature.

That being said. I agree in many areas of what you said, but not all.
I think faking suicide for attention is selfish and cowardly, or people who do it for over dramatic reasons. But I doubt anyone has committed suicide over a car.

You could write me back a mean spirited reply. (From the looks of below, I doubt your that kind of person.) But it really wouldn't hurt, because I would know its coming from a guy who wrote this poem.
I mean seriously, this is like cartoonishly evil. If you were to pull the veil and reveal its just a troll I wouldn't be surprised.
It's well written though.
Ninjabacon35 Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014
Look, im not gonna be the guy that curses you out, but man, this hurt alot of people. It has a good moral but dude, this is pretty serious. Alot of people probably have friends and family who have killed themselfs for more serious reasons than cars and relationships. Just be a bit less agressive with the subject. Good idea though.
Redsam6 Featured By Owner May 28, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Your a fucking moron!
wolfiedawolf Featured By Owner May 26, 2014  Student General Artist
Well, this just makes me SICK. I'm suicidal, not because "Daddy won't buy me a car", but because nobody appreciates me for what I do and who I am. I draw wolves and canines a lot. Therefore I am now permanently known as the "Freak" Throughout the WHOLE of my school. Or "Wolfgirl". And that's not all. Nobody will be there for me, nobody ever is. And nobody ever asked you for your overreaction. I'm so sick of people who think suicide is weak. WELL GUESS WHAT. Us suicidals have bigger problem than whatever the heck is on your mind. That's what makes us "Suicidals". We have tough lives, we go through more than anyone else does. We don't do sucide for the fun of it, or to make people happy about our deaths. We do it for peace. An exit. Instead of just sitting there and letting people do things to you. Don't you think that's a better idea? And people who rub it in others faces about being suicidal, ARE NOT SUICIDAL. THEY DO IT FOR ATTENTION. I'm only bringing up the fact that i'm suicidal because...Well, I might as well not even be looking at this. HAVE A NICE DAY.
ShikiIsForvever Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2014
You cannot condem or stereotype someone until you know their story.

Would you like to know why I attempted suicide when I was 11? I'm epileptic and I used to get constant verbal abuse everyday at school and I wanted out.

It's not all just because 'Daddy didn't buy me a car' or " My girlfriend doesn't love me'. There are so many other reasons.

- People get bullied to the point of suicide because they're smart or their looks or because of their sexuality.

- Some people are born with mental disorders. Such as Schizophrenia, the voices in their heads tell them to do it. Anorexia or Bulimia, people with it become depressed and attempt to off themselves.

- Depression.

- Getting any form of abuse ( mental, physical, verbal) can lead to it

It is mental problem. Some people do it for the most stupid reasons. Others do it because we fell worthless, pathetic, like the world would be better without us or we just want out. We don't want to live in a messed up world with close minded idiots like you who think that all suicides are done for petty things.

When I was 11, I was seconds from hanging myself when I got the most beautiful text message from my friend about how much she cared about me. That's what  made me hesitate. I got all this crap at school, sure, but I had my family andat the very least, this one girl who cared about me. That's the one reason I didn't do it. A lot of these people aren't always as lucky as I am.  

So think a bit more carefully before you start exclaiming such utter nonsense. You don't have the slightest clue what you're talking about
Comowus Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Dude. This is a mental fucking disorder--these people have their own issues and problems and you really don't have the right to tell them what to be upset about, You don't seem to understand that this isn't only wired to hopelessness but, buddy, this is a chemical imbalance. This is an issue deeply equated to things going on in our culture, in our lifetime, embedded in our lives and making us hopeless.

This issue is not one that should be simplified by your ignorance, for the sake of our societal progression. Yeah, there are a lot countries that have it worse but these are not generally a bunch of spoiled brats you are dealing with, these are people who have a disease. I'm really beginning to doubt that your personal contact with these people is all too 'extensive' because you really show a lack of understanding.

So, I really encourage you to educate yourself--because I'm observing that your deepest understanding of depression and hopelessness and emotional stability is limited to the influences of this site and cynics like yourself. Please...these people are suffering by the imbalance of their neurons. Trust me, the lot of them beat themselves up for this all the time and this "people in Africa have it worse, obviously you're a spoiled brat who doesn't deserve issues" is not giving them a wake up call, it's just giving them an outlet to tear themselves down even more and, well, fester in the idea of suicide. 

And I thought you said your were fed up with that.
ShikiIsForvever Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2014
Thank you so much for saying that. It's disgusting how society thinks these days. They label Suicide as 'over reaction' and Self Harm as ' attention seeking'. These people need to take their heads out of their own arses and look at the truth! 
kyoloverxxx Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013

I'm suicidal. And I've had my reasons.

-My own father hates me.

-I've been bullied from age 7-10

-My own uncle raped me from age 5-11

-I have no real friends

So there. You had to vent it out, I had to vent it out.

LeoDavidJones Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
If you want to kill yourself nobody's stopping you.
kyoloverxxx Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2016
I'm actually doing a lot better with coping with my mental stability. Do I reflect on suicidal urges, yes. Am I still alive? Yes. As you can see, that was three years ago, dealt with it for this long, probably sticking around a bit more. 
LeoDavidJones Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
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Phoenixs-Designs Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2013  Student General Artist
I like it, the wording is great, but I think that suicide is based off of a little more than not getting a car. By the way, suicide is kept hidden by most people, they try not show it, so if it's being rubbed in your face it's not by those who are suicidal. No offense to your poem, I see where your coming from... just it's not that simple. I'm sure several of these other people of different countries are suicidal, too.
QueenOfAllThingsEvil Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2013   General Artist
very good poem, nice composition and all... but i really really...really disagree with what it says. 
TheHauntedLily Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
We all get that there are millions of people that have it much worse, but people who commit or have attempted suicide often have mental disorders that cause them to get depressed easily and (speaking from experience) once you hit rock bottom there's very few things that'll stop you from ending it. You won't care if someone else has it a hell of a lot worse than you.
Wolf-Ninja001 Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
love ur icon! I luvv prof. stein!
TheHauntedLily Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
lolz, I'm going on a whole rant about why depression and suicide are different from children starving in Africa and whatnot, then you're just like, "love your icon" 

What lolz I'm sorry 

Anyways, thank you, I love stein too.
Wolf-Ninja001 Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
TheHauntedLily Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That comment gave me a much needed smile
Wolf-Ninja001 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
glad I was able 2 help.
crazymusicgal Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2013
You think people only commit suicide because of not getting a car or little things like that? Ok fine. Maybe there are people like that but that doesn't mean other people don't have real problems. This kinda offended me somehow probably cuz you seemed somewhat closed minded on the subject. But hey, it's your release so I respect that. Just hopefully you see the bigger picture to it.
LemonFerret Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013
I loved this.
I feel like I have to put a disclaimer in here because so many people have been getting their panties in a wad over this poem, so rest assured that I've known many suicidal individuals, I've actually attempted suicide before when I was young and angsty, blah blah blah, who hasn't nowadays.
But I feel your poem speaks to something incredibly profound. The contrast between what you feel you /should/ feel you hear of a suicide and what you actually feel are two different things. Of course you're sad - devastated, actually - but at some point, you get angry. You can't rationalize what could have possibly lead to this. You're angry at them for leaving you, when there are others who seem much worse off.
Great job with this, it really makes you think.
livingfiction Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2013   Photographer
Thank you for the comment.  You hit the nail on the head :D
LemonFerret Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2013
No problem - thank you for your poem. :D
Silverlocket13 Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
It was just a release you guys, read the description. Chill out please.
azaleapeaock Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2012   Writer
This is ridiculous. You just dont get what people go through, cause your stupidily judging them. This poem is terrible and makes people feel like crap. And your shit just makes everything worse-next time you should jsut keep your stereotypical comments to yourself
Keko-Meko Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2012  Student General Artist
You may be sick of suicide, or hearing about it, or whatever, but it's obvious you don't understand it at all. I'm NOT sick of suicide. Try and understand it. Cuz guarantee that if you were to go through something terrible, you would want to end it all. You seem like the kind of person that has a "perfect life". How cliché.
IrkenInvaderMaz Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2012  Hobbyist
I hate this. This shows no understanding at all. Thanks for bringing suicide one step lower.
doodle333 Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2011
and what if they think because they are abused? raped daily by their own family members? stabbed in the back by EVERY person they trusted? commiting suicide for cars... this piece makes me sick. your stereotyping people because one person did something like that? seriously? i have a friend who is considering because she is bullied mentally and physically at home and school. i know people who have considered because they are slaves to their family, mistreated in the most creative ways. how dare you write something like this. people out there who are thinking about look for help through art and find this? it would push them off the ledge
CullTheCats Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2011
Its very true, i think sometmes we get so wrapped up on how hard our lives are we seem to forget how much opportunity and qualiy of life we have. Theirs people fighting for life and we seem th throw ours away through self pity or spite. Ive been in tha dark place too.
Weaverct Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2011
Absoloutly loved the poem. Sorry, I guess I am not intelligent enough to analize it to death and then have all day to write a comdenation of your thoughts because they don't agree with mine.
I just liked it.
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